School is Approaching

School is approaching.

Time for freshman year. A year for mistakes and the "awkward stage." I'm not scared of high school, I'm just scared of what's after that. I'm scared of change. All my life I've only lived in three homes, and where I am, right now, is where I've been the longest. I don't want to move in to a room with a stranger and start being an adult. I want to stay young forever, but school is making me grow up. I can't stop change, I can only create it. I can't afford to mess up, and I don't want to.

School is hard; drama, grades, relationships. And I know at some point I will want to give up. But, I can't, I fought too hard to give up now. I have to prove to the world that I will be strong. That I will make it through this journey called high school. I have to prove to my family that I am not a failure. That I am better than my drop-out siblings. That I am not another mistake. If I complete high school and college with decent grades, I won't care about the rest of my life. I'll get a decent job, and provide myself with anything that I need. But the real accomplishment is completing over seventeen years of school. I'd be proud of myself even if my parents aren't there to congratulate me. So, future graduates, good luck, we'll both need it. ;)