Trust

Trust : firm belief in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of someone or something.

I find it hard to trust people in this cruel world. I grew up only trusting myself, and now I don't know if I even trust myself. Everything I say or do hurts someone. Every time I step outside of my house, I feel distant to the world. I feel like I want to trust someone, but there's no one to trust. I have no one. If I had to run away, I'd have no where to go. I'd have no safe haven, no happy place. I'd be alone, and scared. I'd fall apart without someone there to guide me. But, who can I trust? Everyone lies, and everyone has someone else. I have to rely on myself and my experiences. Which is hard because I've been through so much, and I break down easily. People say that it's good not to trust anybody, but here I am afraid of my reliably. I know what you're going to say, "Well, you have to trust your family". Trust my family? Ha! I feel like I don't belong to this family. Like, I am not who they say I am. I believe that they picked up the wrong baby at the nursery. I don't feel like one of them. I used to think everyone around me were robots and I was the only person with emotion. I used to think everyone felt this way, but when I tried to explain this to my friend, they thought I was crazy. I can only trust myself, and I can't open up my feelings to people because they will not understand.

Who is there to trust?